I wonder how you’re doing with the habits you want to develop and keep. I wonder if you’re sailing through life with daily gym visits, or prayer times, or reading, or letter writing, or playing Candy Crush, or whatever it is you want to do…
Because I’m not sailing anywhere.
For me, Bible reading is the habit I want to develop/keep/rediscover. I’m pretty sure I was pretty good at it when I was a kid, though perhaps Mum and Dad remember differently. And most of my adult life has seen daily Bible reading as a pretty regular feature. But right now, it’s a struggle. (In fact, it occurs to me as I write this, as 6.30pm, that I haven’t yet read my Bible today).
Here’s some of the evidence. I have a daily Bible reading notes thing, called Explore. You might think that’s a pretty impressive start, but I’ve got it on direct debit (or standing order, or whatever it is) and it just keeps arriving on my doorstep every three months. For the October-December one, I started October 7 days early. This wasn’t keenness on my part, or a result of finishing the July-Sept ahead of schedule. No, it was simply because I was so far behind with the July-Sept one that I figured I’d go ahead and get cracking on the next one, so that I wasn’t so far behind.
I was behind again by the 7th.
Here’s some more evidence. A few days ago, I was reading my Bible (*faint cheer*) and was reading Ephesians 2:1-3. It was only when I got to verse 7 that I realised three things: a) I had read four verses too far, b) I hadn’t taken in anything beyond the first couple of words, c) I was thinking about something else completely (something so utterly mundane that I can’t for the life of me even remember what it was!).
And I was conscious that sometimes I blog about great stuff, and things going well, and godly thoughts, and all that stuff. And that’s all well and good, and it seems people appreciate stuff that I write. But I wanted to just level with you and say it’s not all plain sailing here. Life is not as wonderful or straightforward as I would sometimes like.
I should probably go and read my Bible. But I won’t, because Little Boy is out of his bath (I’m sat in the doorway as I type) and I’ve got to get him ready for bed now. But hopefully I’ll remember later, and actually do it.